Wednesday, November 12, 2008
For the past 6 years I have been pregnant, nursing, or both. My body has been on loan to others. My shape had expanded and contracted, and though it has come close to being mine, all mine, it never quite is. Immediate postpartum is by far the most difficult for me - no longer pregnant, breasts that do not even remotely resemble what I am used to, a shape in the mirror that always surprises me. I know that time will once again bring me back to the familiar, and likely this nursing babe will be the last. The end is in sight, though a couple of years still lay ahead. But I am on my way to being my own again; today, as a first step, I managed to put on my engagement ring for the first time in several months.